Recently I got an offer from a man on social media. He wants to get to know me and have occasional non-binding encounters. First when I read messages like that, my mind goes "am I on a meeting app? Did I post I want something like that?" and then I try to see it with my heart and be grateful. For their exposure, honesty... But...the more I connect to myself, the more I feel I want to connect with others. Friends, family, partner. I am no go for something not deep and just for

Preparing sacred cacao for cacao ritual I would like to share the feelings and processes that started at @expansionfest. At the gong bath @tjasacepus and @bostjansanic_zvoksrca I felt a part of me rises from my body and lifting. It has wings, but they are not white, they are dark gray, almost black. Like a burnt landscape around me, full of corpses, only tree stumps sticking out here and there. My chest feels tight, tears are flowing, so much sadness. What happened??? Then

Picture: Ubud water temple, april 2026 About healthy power I've been thinking a lot about what strength/power means to me. When I was going through a breakup after 22 years of partnership I couldn't process these strong emotions within me. My body carried this inside until it got cancer. It was my kick in the ass, the moment I realized it was time to start differently, to look inside and start learning how to take care of myself. Since then I've been exploring my fami

Why YES ceremonial cacao, interview with Deya from Cacao Amor and Cacao Alchemista (who performs cacao ceremonies). There is a lot of talk about it, but...maybe someone will learn something new. Why is drinking sacred cacao healthy and beneficial? There are more than 300 reasons! 🙂 Some of the physiological benefits are: - Cacao has approximately 333 bioactive compounds, making it the most pharmacologically complex food known! - It is a natural antidepressant so it is

Picture: Bali spirit festival 2026 Summer is over. At least weather-wise. My vacation was 2 festivals (one great is still coming for the grand finale @expansionfest). There were a lot of people at @guardiansfestival, a lot of events...and stands. And lots, lots of tents... My attention was caught by a mini altar in front of one tent. I wondered who in this tent had prepared such a heartwarming altar. I didn't know the answer (yet)... From the festival I also remember meeting

​ You should never have to feel ashamed of your own pleasure. It makes you feel guilty, dirty or causes you to shut down right when you should be feeling most alive!!! ​It is normal to feel this way. We grew up in a world where pleasure is a taboo and sensuality, seggsuality is treated like a secret. You feel shame because you were taught that your natural needs might be judged or rejected. I felt this strong before I started shadow and archetypes work. We were not taught how